I met with my surgeon and his team last Friday to go over what I should expect for my hysterectomy next week.
The surgery, which is scheduled for next Thursday, is Dr. Guan’s first case of the day and should start promptly at 7:30 a.m. I’m supposed to arrive by 5:30 a.m.
Meeting with Dr. Guan is always comforting. He’s extremely kind and always listen to what I have to say. Some doctors – as many people with chronic illnesses can attest to – don’t listen to the patient, opting instead to ignore the and tell us, we’re wrong, we’re not eating right, not getting enough exercise and that it’s all in our head.
Not Dr. Guan.
He listens patiently and is sincere when he asks about my pain levels, so I don’t fidget when I go and see him. I know I’m in good hands.
On Friday, one of his fellows asked me why I was getting a hysterectomy when I was so young, beautiful and childless. She asked whether I understood that I wouldn’t be able to conceive without a uterus. I was stunned.
Here I was, just days after having a party to celebrate the departure of my uterus and after having made a really personal, scary and difficult decision with my doctor that is supposed to improve my quality of life; and this other doctor, whom I’ve never met, asks me whether I am sure.
“Of course, I’m not sure,” I retorted, convincing myself that I was, in fact, very sure.
Making this decision knowinf fully well that I’m giving up a part of me was extremely painful. But you know what?
It’s not as painful as the pain and discomfort I’ve had to endure because of endo and adenomyosis.
And people on Instagram have been totally supportive.
I’ve made my choice . I’m happy with my choice. If I want to be a mother, there are other ways. I have options.
After my surgery, I should be out of work for about six weeks. Taking meds for two weeks and unable to submerge or take baths for six to eight weeks.
I’m losing my uterus and my cervix, something called a total hysterectomy. Ovaries stay in (unless they’re diseased) and I’m eternally grateful. I’m not prepared to deal with menopause.
I feel I have to repeat this:
A hysterectomy DOES 👏🏽NOT 👏🏽 CURE👏🏽ENDOMETRIOSIS. It does cure adenomyosis however and those are the symptoms in trying to extinguish.